go back some steps and paint the rest the colors they were meant to be.
parasites preventing psychology-
absent sounds without answers, potential apart metamorphosis.
the mistakes were easy,
splitting monochrome apart of the omniscient wind.
and they never learned anything.
I couldn’t escape the quiescence of ontogeny
descending east or west in our
oblivion as nothing-
these spider webs bury dead
under my intuition
ashamed of my own decisions
refusing to light,
but the flicker always subtle in the night,
aggressive how I wanted to make it shine.
we’re butterflies with broken mirrors,
scintillatingly self-reflecting that our deepest fears will never resonate with
the man under the bridge or the
child in Idaho or the
part of my father i never want to see in myself,
but always will.
hand-crafted maps fade because we’re told to abandon
as if this growth was a virus and not a blessing disguised as
thousands of glass shards unlocking doors.
I wanted to know more.
I couldn’t think where my mind begins
it shifts back hollow where I started
blonde curls lost frivolously among the pile of careful maple leaves
you should’ve tried to understand while you
blurred the sharpness of this image,
shades of fuschia indecisions
evading a dream,
incomplete sets of glass menagerie fog when I fall asleep.
shuffling the shutter, parallel to the stress it put me under.
a life repeating its first day,
confusing caves in sheep
an endless disease.
flowers don’t communicate in binary;
your daisies were fireworks,
mute mutilations of my morbidity,
sheep from tangible reality.
as I felt every strand of indifference-
IT ALL COULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT.
our faces yield yellow hues in
both pines needles and piles of
ashamed of where I hadn’t been
because of the person I have yet to become
knowing what I will never be.
It was strange to see me as a human being
feathers drifting incomplete
as crows without grief
predicting what I could not escape
luminescent highways miles from fate
in the essence of these transgressions
pardon me gray.
what can i call colors i see,
branches of the trees from Polaroid memories,
or dreams of what the world should be?
where can i find these answers on this endless canvas,
this bruised, mountainous landscape,
constantly hammering away against our wars with self-abandonment?
what’s the spectrum where
everyone you’ve ever known that’s felt loss
can sing in harmony?
trapped in my mind,
hope is destiny when it’s not in our plans
running out of time,
the colors will fade as limbs grow thicker
This piece is a collaboration between Zachary Johnson and Danny Kochanowski.
Always remember you are not alone.
You are loved.
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